I Have Learned…

I have learned that by using drugs I was not only hurting myself, I was hurting and affecting people around me. This was not o.k.

My drug use caused me to become very cold and angry. I detached myself from people who care about me because I felt I was a disappointment. I realized that yes; I was disappointing people around me. By realizing where I went wrong I was able to start to make a difference. I admitted that I was struggling with addictions and I accepted treatment. Problems cannot be solved over night; these things take time and effort.

I am writing this letter because I have come to realize that true happiness is within oneself.

Drugs seemed harmless and like a game. They destroyed my life. I fell out of communication with my family and the good people that I had around me. I was unable to hold a job and when I had one my performance suffered.  I struggled to survive because all my money went to drugs. I was very confused I did not even know who I was. I realized that drugs are a false sense of happiness. They are attempts to change feelings and moods. When they wore off it triggered my bad attitude to kick in. I was not comfortable naturally.  I did not care about myself or how my self-abuse was affecting my surroundings.  I started using drugs to party. Then it became routine and I felt I needed them to be able to cope. This resulted in me losing self-control and I hurt a lot of good people.

Thanks to the Narconon program and the love and support of family and friends. I am here today. I realized that I do like me I just didn’t like some of the choices was making. Now that I am clear minded I am able to think rationally about my life. I have begun to repair the damage I caused.  By contributing positive efforts and developing good and honest communication with my family has helped me stay focused and on track with my recovery. I have rejoined my family and begun to regain trust and respect. The most important thing is that I learnt who I am and I am happy naturally.

My advice is to be true to you. Live everyday for the future. Know who you are and don’t try to escape with the use of drugs. Confront issues honestly and do what is right for you so no one gets hurt. Break bad habits by creating healthy routines.

Please pass this letter on to someone who might benefit from my experience.

Thank you for reading

Mandi